Elizabeth Olsen is a hard woman to get over, it seems. The actress’s ex-fiancé, Narcos star Boyd Holbrook, gave an interview to Man of the World detailing his heartbreak after the couple’s split last fall. The pair dated for three years, ending in what Holbrook says felt like “a divorce.”

“On the same day that my best friend died, I got a call from my girl to tell me it was over,” he says. Holbrook’s friend, photographer David Armstrong, died last October. “It was depression,” Holbrook continues. “David was the first person in my life to encourage me.”

Holbrook, 34, recounts that he threw himself into work and travel, leaving the Brooklyn apartment he shared with 26-year-old Olsen to move upstate, make films and take a motorcycle ride through Chile.

“I was consumed with own personal depression, my own personal scenario at the time,” he recalls. “What happened over the course of the journey is that I started noticing the different types of trees. I started noticing the beauty, the details.”

Olsen, meanwhile, was spotted in London this past summer with her I Saw the Light costar Tom Hiddleston. She plays Hank Williams’ wife, Audrey Mae Williams, in the biopic opening in March.